Monday, June 25, 2007

client hilarity

You will never inconvenient an irish man ~ W. John, my client :)

skype is wonderful~! It helps to stay in touch with anyone.anywhere.
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this way my friends, family and business partners in Dublin, Ireland just call this phone number and if they are calling from Dublin they are just being charged a local phone call. This way they don't have an excuse not to call you ;). I have been using skype for the work while John W.(Vice President) was in China and both Simon Brad (Software Engineer Team Lead) and me in KL and the following were the conversations we had this afternoon.
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John W.: Charlene, let me introduce you to Simon Brd. at this point. You know who Simon is, we have talked about him before and what he is going. Simon, has been in KL now for the last 3 week and sit just across the road from you in our new office. I will leave you both to meet and arrange this. Simon, Charlene is wonderful. She will be ever so nice to you and will take real good care of you ...she's great :-).
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Simon Brad: Hey John, Great! Hello Charlene, how about we grab that coffee on Wednesday? Does that suit?
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Charlene: Great! I am fine on Wednesday. What time will you be available? Let me know alright~!
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Simon Brad: Hey charlene, great. Say 12:30pm, i will meet you in the lobby of your office building - and we can head to Starbucks maybe? See you then?
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Charlene: Ok to meet you then :)
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Simon Brad: Bye and take care.
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so, i am anticipating to meet my client, Simon Brad this coming Wednesday. It's always nice to look and move forward and to meet new people.
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**malaysian chaps are ever so difficult to understand, i really don't know why, something it doesn't click, the chemistry is not there, something went wrong. You see, you can't blame me, it's the fact as i see it most of the time. I know i am so bad, but blame me if you like it. I think I like irish people. Ever so nice. One of the country i will go for backpacking on September. See you Ireland~!

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Sunday, June 24, 2007

hear my voice

a good nite post.
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i have never seen a girl cry and cry out as much as she did sunday morning. I feel for her. I truly do. I was like her once, so many years ago. I understand to a certain extent; we are not same person, really, the pain she is going through because I went through that pain. I suffered so much for one person. I cried and cried out so much for one person once. It was the hardest thing or it felt like it was the hardest thing in the world to handle this heaviness on my chest could never be lifted. No matter what I did, no matter how much I worked to make myself exhausted just so I wouldn't have to think about it never helped. It was constantly there; that anger, hurt, frustration, sadness, loneliness was constantly there. It took years to rid myself of it, but I did. It took time. It took a lot of self-realization and self-healing and self-loving for me to understand what happened, and to come to terms with the demons within myself. I needed to hurt in order to grow. It sounds silly, but some of us need this in order to learn. We're stubborn people, people who take chances with our lives; our happiness is put on hold because we feel the need to make the people around us happy in order to be happy ourselves when in reality, what we really need is to live for ourselves and never for anyone else.
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it hurts to care for someone the way that I do, and to not have that care returned. It hurts a lot. But you can't do anything about them. You can't change them. I know these words are so easy to say, but when you actually try to do it; when you try not to change them and try not to want anything in return... it's a hard thing to do. We want to be wanted in the same ways that we would want them; we're human. It's what we do and how we do. Some of us can turn the other cheek and never look back. Some of us, like me, need to hurt, to hate, to push, to run sometimes, only to realize that we were in the wrong, not because we cared to much, but because we expected something in return.
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you know, the best and most rewarding lessons in life are the ones that are the hardest to handle. You can choose to believe they will break you into pieces, or you can choose to believe that they help bend you a little more, and help you learn more about who you are. It's these lessons in life that help you find true happiness... the happiness that comes from within you.
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i think i am going to be a different person all in all. My new home has been up, i had met my dearest prim old mates, my new shop has been on the business prior to the shop warming, i had a new colour on my hair, i am going to get my attractive commissions next month, i am going to buy a digital camera and mp4 next month, 7 months to go before i leave to Dubai, i am going to backpacking travel on September, i hope to see new life in a very next minutes. Just 7 months to go.
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雨 像一整夜的梦痛 却怎么也不走猜不透是哪里出了错, 或许只是该结束的时候想起你那句还是朋友为什么我竟如此痛在心头, 如果你在寂寞的时刻却听见我这首歌你眼眶是否会发热如果你在快乐的时刻却听见我这首歌你心里是否会有一点舍不得你心里是否会有一点.
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如果你听见我的歌.

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Saturday, June 23, 2007

part of my life - primary ol' classmates~!

2 important piccies of my life for memories


i wonder where about the rest of my ol' classmates. I miss you guys. I hope to meet you guys in the near future, even 30.40.50 years that goes on.
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good nite mates~!

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Thursday, June 21, 2007

out of my mind

imagine a 182cm tall guy with only a 154cm little girl..hahaha..anyways, i am so glad to see my little brother already has a girlfriend, time flies with a blink of an eye. I must admit the girlfriend is so. so cute and sweet!


i am beginning to realize that one who truely hates himself cannot love. He cannot place his trust in another. Only in a dream can happiness not be disrupted. You mustn' t forget that you must endure the lonliness. Man can never completely erase. - charlene.

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Monday, June 18, 2007

the back of my new home @ balcony

my fovourite curtain and the balcony

the swimming pool from the view from my balcony

the living room

the living room and the piano

nothing come perfect. The petronas twin towers are just hiding at the back of the balcony. Anyways, i have been stargazing almost every.every.night @ balcony. It's simply breathtaking.

every single night is just so beautiful, the wind blew, starring at the twinkle twinkle little stars, seeing how happily my neighbour's son and daughter swimming at the view from top of my balcony. It just so lovely.quietly and peacefully. I cry when something is sad. Then i often shed a tear when something's beautiful as well. When something is funny or ugly, i laugh. Perhaps we are sad when something is beautiful because we know that it won't last for ever. Then we start laughing when something is ugly because we understand it is only a joke. Clowns are funny to look at because they are so dreadfully ugly. When they take off their clown masks in front of the mirror, they become very handsome. That's why clowns are so sad and unhappy each time they go into their circus caravans and slam the doors behind them. It was just a thought, i have nothing much to do besides enjoying myself at night at the balcony.

new home settled. Now, i am going to straightening or rebonding my hair and i am going to colour my hair. You'll be going to see my new look. On September, i am going to travel somewhere i belong. You gotta make yourself happy, cheerful and yada.yada.yada.

g'nite.





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Sunday, June 17, 2007

my romantic home

the living room

the balcony at night

the living room, another angle

the piano

one of my favourite picture


Ride On ! , hello dearie arglene~! as per your request :) my romantic new house is up! the new house has been long overdue since May, lots of things to consider, lots of design to think about and i finally decorated my house like a Korea style. Thanks to all the renovators who have been so kind. I think i am overly perfectionalism when comes to decorating new house. OKAY~! I love the balcony. I reckon it is the best place for BBQ and steamboats with a bunch of friends. Especially during nights, starring at the stars and have a cuppa drink, quietly. I am looking forward to some overseas friend hopefully when they come back, i am going to set up a opening house.

good things come in hand in hand. Nothing is impossible ( i heard someone told me this before). Yes. Our new shop is going to be up soon, do i need to work for OL or not anymore? Anyways, i will post some pictures soonest :)

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Saturday, June 16, 2007

marry.marry bells

i cannot imagine~!
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wedding bells are ringing! I just received a wedding invitation via email from my primary classmate. My eyes nearly popped out and hit the LCD screen. Well, i mean, i was this close to deleting the email - it was simply tagged as "Invitation" and I thought it's just one of the many social network invitations that flood my mailbox. It's quite a daunting thought that all of us are growing up so fast. Honestly, I still feel like a kid and I don't think I have the courage to say my vows and seal the deal in the near future. However, i'm just a skeptic when it comes to my own personal life. But I'm so happy for him, and for the 3 other classmates who, in the past couple of years, managed to not get cold feet before walking down the aisle.
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phew! why i'm ashame of being a chinese? THIS IS WHY! Seriously, I will have to start bringing a map in my bag in case anyone thinks that Malaysia is in the mainland.
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anyways, i am back! the new house are up, it's properly done. My internet connection is up now!

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Friday, June 08, 2007

the beauty behind the scene

you know, as a matter of fact most people wouldn't even notice anything odd at all, but I did. This little moment gives me a glimmer of hope. That hope is that in the same way a very attractive person can become less attractive the more you get to know them a person that you wouldn't have given a second glance can become, over time, the most beautiful person in the world. Yes, I am a hopeless romantic, but it is the littlest things that keep people like myself going. In a world such as ours it's only love and hope of love that makes any of this bearable.
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当蝴蝶飞到花中间,相信那甜美的瞬间, 蝴蝶飞去寻找另一副画面, 接受吧这就是昨天留下了青春的纪念.

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Tuesday, June 05, 2007

a letter to you


food pictures from malacca. We had asam laksa, curry laksa, nyonya laksa
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Did you ever noticed, sometimes we do things that we regret, but over time we learn to hide them in the back of our minds. We trick ourselves into thinking that it wasn't so bad after all. We can go for years and years without ever even thinking about it. Then one day, without warning, something happens that brings you face to face with your past. It has been said that those who cannot remember the past are doomed to repeat it.
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Back then when I was 18 years old I got into a fight with my best friend and we stopped talking the last day of school. I swore I would never talk to him again. When Summer was over and it was back to school I had forgotten all about being mad and was ready to see my friend again. The only problem is that my friend had moved over the Summer to another state. I never saw my friend again. More importantly I never got to take back the things that I had said. As I have grown older I have learned how important it is to overlook the little things that hurt us, forgive the big things that drive us apart, that truly good friends are rare and life is too short to stay mad for very long.
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3 years ago when you hung up on me I was so mad at you. I swore then I would not give you the satisfaction of calling back. I figured in four or five days you would come around and I would have to scold you once again about giving me the silent treatment. Now it's been 4 years and I have heard nothing from you. For a while I was very angry with you so I could careless, but now I'm just hurt. I'm hurt that you think so little of me that you would act this way. I am sad that I seemed to have waisted so much of my energy on a friendship that apparently means nothing to you. Most of all I am angry with you for taking away your friendship without discussing it with me first. Your birthday party, hiking trips, the Laker's game, my birthday and just being there for each other all makes for what I considered one my best friends. I'm sorry if you think I let you down. I'm sorry if you think I am a disappointment to you, but guess what...you let me down, too.
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我信任一个人我才刚学会, 你却轻松的将它撕裂.

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Monday, June 04, 2007

the flower you gave me


one of those people that i missed and word can't describe. Hmm..the flower you gave for me for my eye therapy, i still keep it..awaiting to meet you.
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oh Patrick~! to travel is to live ~! when will i see you?

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